This speech kinda got to me. It’s from a college graduation ceremony I found online. At least the first half of it. It’s something I sorda think about a lot. Like all the goals people set forth and all the hard work people put in. Like does it really matter at all if you don’t enjoy the ride? I guess that’s sorda why I always cash out on random stuff and spoil my friends with things because deep down inside, I care more about the experience than anything. Yeah I still have things I want to do in the future. But right now, I’m pretty satisfied with everything I’ve done. For the most part, I’ve lived life to the fullest, with no regrets. My only regrets may be from living life too hard. But I rather live and know than never know at all. I’ve always kept my future in my mind, but at the same time, I’ve always tried my very best, to live in the moment.
Here’s that speech.
“There will be hundreds of people out there with your same degree; there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you will be the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life. Not just your life at a desk, or your life on a bus, or in a car, or at the computer. Not just the life of your minds, but the life of your heart. Not just your bank account, but your soul. People don’t talk about the soul very much anymore. It’s so much easier to write a resume than to craft a spirit. But a resume is a cold comfort on a winter night, or when you’re sad, or broke, or lonely, or when you’ve gotten back the test results and they’re not so good. So here is what I wanted to tell you today: Get a life. A real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house. Do you think you’d care so very much about those things if you blew an aneurysm one afternoon, or found a lump in your breast? Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze over Seaside Heights, a life in which you stop and watch how a red-tailed hawk circles over the water gap or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a cheerio with her thumb and first finger. Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you. And remember that love is not leisure, it is work. Each time you look at your diploma, remember that you are still a student, still learning how to best treasure your connection to others. Pick up the phone. Send an e-mail. Write a letter. Kiss your Mom. Hug your Dad. Get a life in which you are generous. Look around at the azaleas in the suburban neighborhood where you grew up; look at a full moon hanging silver in a black, black sky on a cold night. And realize that life is the best thing ever, and that you have no business taking it for granted. Care so deeply about its goodness that you want to spread it around. Once in a while take money you would have spent on beers and give it to charity. Work in a soup kitchen. Be a big brother or sister. All of you want to do well. But if you do not do good, too, then doing well will never be enough.”
I just need someone to tell me things straight up. My only problem with that though, is that when someone tells me something that I don’t feel like is the right answer, I will fight against it until they give me the response I’m looking for.
Most of this uncertainty derives from situations where things aren’t set in stone. Yeah rules and regulations are made. Morals are established. But at the same time, I believe it’s always manageable to get around those virtues. I especially believe it’s possible to get around it when I’m talking to the person who established these “rules” and is telling me they can’t give an exception to somebody who did everything you asked them to do. I did everything I was told to do before the “new rules” were established.
Like I fucking hate that with a passion. I fucking do everything you tell me to do and you tell me no? This has happened to me so many fucking times in the last five years here. In sports, majors, programs, etc. My problem is that I don’t give up. I never give up. I will always have at least some degree of hope. I’ve only lost hope in myself maybe once in my life and that was after practically going through hell for almost a year because I wouldn’t give up. But even with that, right now, I still have hope for it.
So don’t you dare tell me no and not expect me to do every single thing in my power to defy you. Especially when I’m one quarter away from completing everything. I don’t quit. I will never quit until you take affirmative action and physically force me to.
I just know something can be done to achieve what I’m striving for. I just need to find the right people. Timing, connections, persistence. That’s what’s going to get me success.